When You are Being Unlike You

Have you ever lost yourself? It's like you are being unlike you. You feel that you've changed a lot. You used to like standing up in front of many people. You didn't feel shy even so brave. You loved when people's attention on you. You strongly had wonderful confidence. 

But then, you were getting older. You experienced hard things in your life. Even the things that you never have been through before. Since that, you started feeling uncomfortable to talk in front of many people. You started wondering, why have you changed. Where's all the confidence that were with you before. You were even trained to be on the stage since kindergarten. And you were so shining in your university time. But then, it was all gone. 

You've become a person that is comfortable behind the stage. You feel not safe if people see your face. Maybe it's good because now you are a trainer. But, still. You feel you lost your self.

Yet, as it turns out, you gradually have been healed. The hard things that have become a lesson in your life, with time you are able to get over it. 

Maybe, you should have experienced it in the past yeah. So that you didn't grow older arrogantly and too much confidence and become more humble. Exactly yeah, anything happens in our life. It actually is dedicated to destroy our bad characters. Allah loves us that much.

All right, the rain is still dancing outside. My mind was just itchy since I didn't write anything last night 😄 I will sleep back with the best song in the world; the sound of the rain...